"yes there are two paths you can go by, but in the long run, there's still time to change the road you're on" - led zeppelin

it's strange, that all of a sudden i'm doubting.
i'd decided on graphic design as a major years ago, did an internship with an ad agency to make sure. i wanted to open my own business, designing logos or ads or magazines or complete business identities. it's something that i could see myself doing for a significant amount of time without coming to hate it - or myself.

i think maybe i'm just frustrated with my design class and the fact that i can't seem to produce a single decent piece of work. still, i don't think i want to depart completely from the idea of art... though maybe i should just make it something personal and not allow my finances to rely upon it. i just can't get away from the nagging feeling that i could be doing more, that there must be something, somewhere that i could be passionate about, some niche that only i could fill.

i don't know. i suppose the end of freshman year is when you're supposed to doubt your future; it seems as good a time as any. in a way, i'm sure it'll work out, sure that i'll find whatever it is i'm supposed to be doing, and do it.

it'd just be nice to have any idea what that "it" is.