"let the world be the world, let the dream unfurl, let it run its own game, let it dance with itself" - live

every day i discover more ways i want to spend my life. i want to teach first graders how to paint, i want to take care of elephants and tigers, i want to work in nursing homes, i want to own my own ad agency or law practice or nursery or used book store, i want to work as a doctor in south america, i want to write the great american novel, i want to drum in the streets of copenhagen for change from passersby, i want to sing opera, i want to be an activist, i want to be an astronaut, i want to be a mother, i want to be a mentor, i want to be a scientist, an editor, a farmer, a ranchand, a hermit, a movie star.

i am sitting in my room amidst piles of laundry and half-opened mail, unmade bed and brand-new books. my stomach is full of chai and banana nut bread, my mind buzzing with the ideas that i've been culturing while staring out three weeks' worth of windows as states roll by. i am paralyzed by the flood of desire, the thirst for life that is pouring through me. i want to travel the world, i want to learn the name of every wildflower in my hometown, i want to memorize the cracks in my walls. i want to be a belly dancer. i want to discover a new galaxy. i want the nobel prize for literature or peace or science. i want to live in the mountains with horses for transportation and rich soil for my toes to wiggle in. i want to live in a town with a funny name. i want to live in a hobbit hole with solar-powered lights.

there is so much more world out there than we are led to believe.
and, love, i want to share it all with you.