over and over these past years, i have been redefining my world, realigning my values and discovering that a number of seemingly small things actually constitute the most important parts of my life. i have learned the length and breadth of realizing value only in loss: the beauty of waves and constant skies, the ease of sure understanding, the friendships i took for granted over the course of a decade or so, but which now i miss dearly.

happy birthday nika, darling. is it raining at your concert?