we took my dog to the beach right before he left, and left our lingering footprints in damp sand with hers trundling along between us.

there are moments when i can see years unfurl, when i can feel the path of my life forking. there have been times when i knew that i could change everything, when i could taste the road less traveled. sometimes, they say, you can sense when you are within the shadows of morian's doors.

i feel lost - i feel like i have stumbled and taken my eyes off the horizon, and now the ocean's on my wrong side and i don't know which way is home. there's been much muddled insofar as knowing what i want, but i can say this: i don't want the waiting, i don't want the silence, and i don't want to sleep alone.