i had forgotton that also, i am inspired. we are all tired of humanity, i think. we all want somewhere dark and silent.

this summer i will be working for an organization called campaign to save the environment. i waited with another college-aged girl while every few minutes the phone rang. our interviewer would excuse herself with an apologetic smile, answer the phone, and set up an interview time for the person on the other end.

we are preparing to change the world. this generation knows too much; we've seen too much destruction and too much idiocy. the threads are connecting, and i think the frantic pedaling of the corporations will soon prove futile. some things will be forced: our petroleum supply will be exhausted in a half-century or so, water in the middle east will become scarce enough to warrant nuclear war. there will be changes made by gunpoint, by the point of a knife or the point of starvation.

but i think we will not destroy ourselves. i think we will reclaim what is ours - a world that does not cannibalize itself, a life that makes sense. i think we will find community and culture. i think it will take a long time, and i don't think that i will witness the revolution in full.

but perhaps my children.
and in the meantime, i can eat at the white dog, shop at used bookstores, recycle my bottles, and water my plant. and i can love with all the strength i have, because that's the only thing that's going to save us.

so there.