> jumping into life.

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i shouldn't be this fragile anymore. but there's just so much to do, and i'm so afraid of leaving - afraid like i've never been before, the only thing scaring me more now is the thought of going back to school - and my parents were just awful to each other last night, and i didn't get enough sleep, and then one backhanded phrase sends me reeling like its last january. but it isn't. this is now, and i'm leaving, and i've left.

i'm sorry.